Tsunami, Tsunami, Tsunami

I have not had a night with a dream in it since I was pregnant with the babies...so, almost 2 years ago. But, last night, I had the strangest dream (well, actually, it was this morning, because Adam said good-bye to me right as I was coming out of the dream). We were on the beach at a beach house. I really have no clue where this was at...it was unfamiliar. The sun was beating down on us...we were all playing in the sand. Suddenly, the sun was not on us and I look up. There is a huge wave (tsunami) blocking the sun. I know it is ready to break. I am terrified. I feel the water beating down on me and instinct takes over. I grab on to Gretchen and Delaney, Adam grabs on to Hadley and Addison was out of our reach. He gets washed away. We start searching for him as the water recedes and find him standing on a sand bar, completely unharmed.
Now, I have always had a conscious fear of drowning. I just cannot imagine not being able to breathe, knowing that time was limited. This dream caught me off guard, completely. Once I was awake and able to fully process it, I realized that I was glad that I didn't live near a beach and that I was safe in my own bed, as were all of my children.
So, I did a bit of research. I came across this in a dream dictionary...
Tidal waves or tsunamis suggest that you may be in a period of emotional upheaval. Anxiety, stress, and unconscious materials may be coming to the surface and affecting your daily moods. Giant tidal waves from your dream may be symbolic of current emotional unhappiness and psychological stress that may be threatening to destroy or uproot you. The outcome of this dream could reveal to you how much strength you have to "ride out" this storm. If you are not consumed, or you survived the tidal waves of your dream, be assured that you will survive the challenges of life and living.
I think this is all pretty precise. I have been dealing with some 'road' questions...which path to take, which will be the best bet for my family and our happiness. It is so interesting that my conscious fear, a fear I have not thought of consciously since this summer, manifested into a dream fear, yet with a positive outcome. I have been chewing over some tougher choices recently...my close friends know what I am talking about, and it has really had me in an emotional tailspin. I ask so little of people in my daily life...honesty, trust, truthfulness. I have been shown that these are not the goals of others, and it really bothered me. However, today, after this tsunami dream, I feel less anxious about all of the minute details, finally able to focus on what is truly important to me.
I find it telling that giant tidal waves represent current emotional unhappiness...I am happy with the blessing I have, unhappy with those that have taken an easier way in life by cheating, and am now able to allow my blessings to foster my true life and leave the less inviting aspects of life exactly where they belong in my life...
Thank you, to my true friends. You know who you are and what you mean to me.

Long time...

I have not posted in quite some time...I think over a year. I have been immersed in motherhood...potty trained the older girls, got through a really rough battle of holding issues (potty related) with one of them, nursed 2 babies until they were over 1 year old, and did this all with very little outside help. I like doing things with very little outside help. It just works for me.
So, the kids are doing great. Absolutely. The older girls start preschool this week and I couldn't be more proud of them. They are both excited and are taking this new adventure in stride. While I believe that they are both socially and academically where they should be (or perhaps a bit more advanced), I think this will be a really great transitional step for them leading into kindergarten. Plus, who doesn't want or need more friends, right?
The babies are amazing. Addison is quite the little flirt of a man...and is either seriously happy for screaming mad (he doesn't cry, just yells). Delaney is a climber and gets into everything that she can figure out (it took her about 15 seconds yesterday to climb on top of our dining room table). But, she is oh so smart. You can see it in her eyes. She figures everything out.
Adam and I are doing well. We are gearing up to celebrate our 7 year wedding anniversary this winter and I think we have greatness in our future. We love where we are in life right now, love our children, love our neighbors, love our neighborhood, love our supporters and do our best daily to find honest and loving people with which to surround ourselves.
I am going to be taking this blog in a different direction, still blogging as a mom of 4 kids, a mom of 2 sets of twins, a stay at home mom, but also tackling some of the tougher parts of life. I have always imagined writing a book at some point and perhaps this will be a good springboard to gather my ideas.
So, in closing today, I want to remind everyone to treat others the way you want to be treated and to live an honest life.