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The crazy blog of a mom of toddler twins and pregnant with a second set of twins. I write it as it is in my life...as I see it or interpret it.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Tsunami, Tsunami, Tsunami

I have not had a night with a dream in it since I was pregnant with the babies...so, almost 2 years ago. But, last night, I had the strangest dream (well, actually, it was this morning, because Adam said good-bye to me right as I was coming out of the dream). We were on the beach at a beach house. I really have no clue where this was at...it was unfamiliar. The sun was beating down on us...we were all playing in the sand. Suddenly, the sun was not on us and I look up. There is a huge wave (tsunami) blocking the sun. I know it is ready to break. I am terrified. I feel the water beating down on me and instinct takes over. I grab on to Gretchen and Delaney, Adam grabs on to Hadley and Addison was out of our reach. He gets washed away. We start searching for him as the water recedes and find him standing on a sand bar, completely unharmed.
Now, I have always had a conscious fear of drowning. I just cannot imagine not being able to breathe, knowing that time was limited. This dream caught me off guard, completely. Once I was awake and able to fully process it, I realized that I was glad that I didn't live near a beach and that I was safe in my own bed, as were all of my children.
So, I did a bit of research. I came across this in a dream dictionary...
Tidal waves or tsunamis suggest that you may be in a period of emotional upheaval. Anxiety, stress, and unconscious materials may be coming to the surface and affecting your daily moods. Giant tidal waves from your dream may be symbolic of current emotional unhappiness and psychological stress that may be threatening to destroy or uproot you. The outcome of this dream could reveal to you how much strength you have to "ride out" this storm. If you are not consumed, or you survived the tidal waves of your dream, be assured that you will survive the challenges of life and living.
I think this is all pretty precise. I have been dealing with some 'road' questions...which path to take, which will be the best bet for my family and our happiness. It is so interesting that my conscious fear, a fear I have not thought of consciously since this summer, manifested into a dream fear, yet with a positive outcome. I have been chewing over some tougher choices recently...my close friends know what I am talking about, and it has really had me in an emotional tailspin. I ask so little of people in my daily life...honesty, trust, truthfulness. I have been shown that these are not the goals of others, and it really bothered me. However, today, after this tsunami dream, I feel less anxious about all of the minute details, finally able to focus on what is truly important to me.
I find it telling that giant tidal waves represent current emotional unhappiness...I am happy with the blessing I have, unhappy with those that have taken an easier way in life by cheating, and am now able to allow my blessings to foster my true life and leave the less inviting aspects of life exactly where they belong in my life...
Thank you, to my true friends. You know who you are and what you mean to me.

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